''who ''who am i?''

I step up in this room filled with all kinds of talented and vigorous, rigorous, up to the feet and moving people with tags of their names on it. as i sit down to be interviewed with a rectangular hard paper pinned in my sweater which is supposed to be my 'name tag'. and the first question the interviewer asks is ''who are you?'' i try to look at him hard enough to thinking to myself, does this gentlemen not see my name pinned in my sweater''. obviously as i force myself to utter my words. i am so and so. but he still looks at me and is like ''really are you getting what i am saying?''. i didnt ask for your identity i asked for your adequatey, what represents you as if you never had a name?. oooh!!! thats a tough question, who am i? who are you? leave alone the name and career tags that constantly overload us and are similar to a thousand people involved with the specific career or name. a personal examination and honest evaluation will make one stand out from the crowd without having to constantly fight to get notice. this is the ability and the spontaneous gifted piece of uniqueness that is inside one without being forced out but one that constantly develops and warmly grows to the benefit of the one that is attached to it. that light and excellent ability is what makes u and i who we are. it may be that unique way of leading, serving, blogging, researching, editing, counseling that is quite different from the other person but equally better with the other person. best to your ability. thats who you are. that sense of belonging and sense of giving that excites you when you do. that precious value of service.

Women, power, in the eyes of Nancy Baraza

Nancy Baraza's play and watch me case that has raised alarms of the credibility of women and power has left me and many to question the sense of a woman in handling power, fame. but i will look at this question in two different approaches. 1. there are definately amazing women out there who have had it all and lived as if it was just like it wasn't there, instead they have chose to use what they abundantly have to produce a positive outcome on the lives of those reflected by their super duper excellent substance. 2. they are also this type two woman whose power, fame may have been a toxic one in that they needed a certain liberty to prove themselves right. '' i definitely know men also mess up but here, i am on the woman ''feminine agenda''. have seen women that have dropped from divas to deceivers, leaders to lead us(me) concept without actually knowing it. but in the case of Nancy baraza, this isn't the first time for her to hold a leadership position, maybe first in terms of highest ranking but all her life she has had to make decisions that affect people regarding her status as a ''judge'' but also as a woman involving her personal/family life, she has definitely done that and i believe she has given her best in all. i just believe that sometimes we are so out of average with our selves that we forget there are times we need to put back that button of level and humility to conquer the small weeds that will always and all through grow. in that what conspired between her and her fate that probably enlightened some of the bones in her darkest closet and what might and will maybe ''will'' change her career for all time. am i trying to be rude here, definately not, was her position as a leader rightfully used or it was part of the system ''i am not like you'' or was she rudely given that she felt it was out of control. i don't know, i don't know and i am definitely not judging her.  i just believe that one moment of awkwardness doesn't reflect her thousand days of characters or near women and how they handle positions and leadership.